I skipped school today and here blogging. Blehhh. Too bored at home with a high pile of hw. =S.

So yesterday, We had to do an essay for BM. And so... I slept off after the essay was done. I wrote 180+ words. Then Pn. Azira called out my name. She claimed that I only wrote 140 words. Wtheck?




Except for that, I have nothing else to blog about dy.


Till then! =)

I don't have much to blog about actually. I'm wasting my weekends for rest. Well, I guess I am, by coming online and sleeeeeeeeeeep. lol.

My family is eating yummy spicy food but never bought mine, since I'm sick =(

Mike smses and I'm asking him about NS. He mentioned that if you get married when 17 or 18 then you're exceptional for NS. Consider that. x) BLEH. I don't guess I will. But waaaaaaaaaaait. He sounds like NS is really a living hell. =S. and I finally hope I don't get that. Actually I wouldn't mind, but he is changing my thought towards NS. =S.

so, WHAT IF I GET INTO NS?! xD.

and yes, before that think I shall think about PMR.

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I'm tired of:
> life.

I am listening to:
> I'm with you by Avril Lavigne.

Maybe I should:
> give up.... and not to have high hope.

Chocolate is
> what I;m craving for!

I last ate:
> some kinda japanese noodles. =S

Right now I’m craving:.
> him.

Love is:
> hard. But it can be the sweetest thing at the same time. It's also what you need. It's everywhere. -the list goes on.-

Today:
> is wasted.

Tomorrow:
> is going to be wasted.

QUESTIONS:

Is your cell phone right by you?
> well, most of the time.

Do you miss someone?
> yes.... but obviously he doesn't know and he won't know. That hurts. :(

Are you wearing chap stick?
> No...

Are you tired?
> A little. But I just woke up. =S

Are you wearing pajamas:
> Nopeee..

Are you upset?
> Well, part of me. Yea.

LASTS:
Last drink?
> Horlick. xD.

Last phone call?
> 12.30p.m.

Last time you cried?
> Yesterday.

RANDOM QUESTIONS:
Ever laughed until you almost cried?
> Yeah.

Met someone who changed your life?
> Yes.

Is there something you want to tell someone?
> I love you!! and I really have loads of other things to tell you. =(

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smoke?
> yea. I guess.

Last person you texted...
> Mike.

Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
> Kinda forgotten. . .

Do you think you’ve made a difference in anyone’s life?
> I have no idea lah.

When is your next road trip?
> No time for that.

Where is the person you like at right now?
> Well. . . I won't know his schedule so don't ask.

What outfit do you have on at this exact moment?
> blouse and shorts. =.=. too lazy to change. xD

What were you doing at 7AM?
> Sleeping.

How do you feel?
> Sicccccck!

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
> Cold... but not too cold. =S

Where did you sleep last night?
> In my room.

What/who woke you up today?
> My phone alarm.

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
> Well. . . it's been long ago. and I don't know. Probably Wong.

Is there anyone you want to be with right now?
> Yes, I reallllllllly do!! =( but nah, It just won't happen.

I'm sorry but I finally chose to escape. I really don't know what to do to get every problem settled.
and everything makes my life get more and more complicated and harder by the second. Come on, My life is just normal and you KNOW it. But, why am I getting all this?! =(

I'm not gonna focus on shits anymore! and... I'm not explaining things too... because I believe that end of the day you'll know everything, every truth that was hidden behind.


& I'm just a normal human being! LIKE YOU!!! But obviously my life is being spy-ed.

I don't like it!

Random!


I went down to buy food and I saw this mega cute and HOT skater boy. =P
Get it get it?

and there were me and this guy who pressed 6th floor and mine was 10th. The lift went to the 10th floor first. AWESOMEEEE!! Because I pressed the lift first and he just acted gangster and blocked my way from going in first... but being me, I got in front of him and got into the lift first... xD.

So, It's like this.

I CHOSE to enjoy the rest of my holidays. =P. Great choice isn't it?
So, I left my hw un-done. It's BM. Maths. Civics.
Maybe MORE to come but I'd never know, cause I don't care.
Today we had BM and I totally forgot about my hw. The great. But Pn. Azira didn't really do anything to me. I told her that I'll get it perfectly done by tomorrow. *cheesy smiles*
I didn't think she was that nice. I mean, she yelled at Asthika for not getting her hw done and handed in. I was just... fine and safe.
and NO! I don't want her to treat me the way how she treats Asthika... =P.

So, Those 3 days of my holidays. YES, it's only 3!!! and I wanna ask why!! Gosh!!
It's damn short and I seriously needed to distress, after all smart intervensi, tuition tests and not to forget, STUDYING.

First day of it which was Friday, went out MV.
2nd day, went out MV. Had GREATTT fun! =)
LAST DAY, whole day online-day! Which was supposed to be sleeping-day but someone is too attractive to make me stay online for whole day. xP.


=DD.

Okay I know I'm that lifeless. Planned to go Petaling Street on Friday but too dumb to take LRT. I guess the word "dumb" already explains everything and I need not to elaborate on what happened right?!

Saturday had class at mv and went for the same movie, Race To Witch Mountain again. So this time I finally got what the movie is all about. It was an achievement, trust me. xD.

I've finally learnt to not stress myself too hard, Thus, I'm here blogging. =P

Am having form 1 Maths and History 2moro and I ain't gonna study for History!

Man, I'm seriously getting fed up studying! and waking up EARLY in the morning just to go tuition!
I just have feeling that teachers actually don't care bout how we feel.

25 pages, a total of 200 History questions in 2 hours.
200 Science questions in 1 and a half hour.

For science it was alright but History was a REAL killer! I mean, how I hope I could end my life right there. xP.

& Mcd's everyday! Probably not THE way to go, but oh well.

Dear blog,


I'm gonna summarise everything that happened within this week. Since I've not been blogging for quite some time.


So, Monday was my b'day. After all the celebration and great fun, I fell sick. Really sick. Got 2 days of MC.
It's the first time in my secondary life I ever slept for WHOLE damn day. Never got up, never knew what time was that and the worst, I wasn't aware if It's morning or night. Besides, I had not touched rice for like 3 days which makes me lack of energy when I was back in school. I don't think the sickness has gone, I'm still having slightly headache at random times.

Thursday I was not supposed to go tuition as I wasn't feeling well. But maths, maths and MATHS. I'm kinda lagging in maths, so I decided to go.

God, I'm really scared of the coming loads of tests in 2 days time. 2 days preparing for 8 tests. obviously I'm losing faith in doing well in any of them.


- signing off.

I'm feeling very sick but no matter what, I'm gonna post what had been happening on 9th of March before I forget any fun part of it. =)

Start off the day by waking up at 6am since I had tuition at 8am.
-Tuition- Maths. History. Almost dozed off. :)

After tuition, waited for Li Huei outside the tuition place and headed to BangsarSportsCentre to wait for Tim, Jian and Edward. Continue heading to Mcd's.

Ain: Wow. Those guys are sooooooo cute!! *points at those guys in the football field*
ys: Well, Just shout "you are so cute" to them!
Ain: No way. ys: Li Huei, we will do it. =P
Li Huei & ys : *shouts out loud!* YOU'RE SOOOO CUTE!!
ys to Ain : So, Is that called open minded? -inner thing-

On the way to Mcd's, called Mike, asking is Wong there as Li Huei wanna see him. :P

Reached Mcd's. Order Hotcakes which I've been craving for so long!
Tim wished me happy b'day. Went back.

Time to enjoy Hotcakes of course. :P
Syahmi came about 10.30am. Brought me present.
Vickram came, discussed some test paper with Syahmi and brought Syahmi to go somewhere with him. They went.


BEFORE
Left : Edward's tea. - no skills at asking for refill - xD
Middle : SPIDERMAN!
Right : Jian's tea. -got skills at asking for refill -


AFTER
Left : Edward's tea after adding 3 packets of sugar? Or maybe more. xP
Right: Jian's tea after adding 8 packets of sugar.

** ys: It looks like polluted river with rubbish.

Li Huei went to Cziplee with Ain and left me with Jian and Edward. Jian went changing and left me with Edward. LOL.

He changed very fast indeed. Hmmm.
Talk talk talk and had fun talking with them. =)
Jian spotcheck-ed my bag. I missed all shots of him! Hmph.
He could use everything to cover his face. Very hard indeed to take his pictures man.
Then, there was this lady who came and asked for donation, FINALLY! When he was insecured. or rather he had no way to hide his face while the lady is talking to him, I took one picture of him. MUAHAHA. Oh well, I ain't that bad to post it up here. =P Li Huei came back, we headed to BV.

On the way, there were many many clothes shops! *I like I like * xD went in one of the shops and made Edward try that blazer. =DD.
They were trying to make me try that very expose tube but I managed to escape.

- sorry the pic is kinda blur. -
Blazer with shorts and slippers is very nice indeed la bro. xD.


Reached BV, went to G2000. -saw Wong *evil grins*-
They guys made me try this dress. More pictures in Ain's phone.


Ain: * takes pic* CUTIEE!!
ys: O.o!!

My jacket got stuck and it took me bout 15mins to change back. zzz.
Walked around. Went MPH.
Jian was reading this "Singapore ghost stories" while Edward was finding some really random books. Lol. Went walking around with Li Huei but back to MPH after 10 mins. Wanted to find Edward.

ys : Eh monkey! Where's Edward?
Jian : He just came and he went looking for you!
ys : Ohhh gosh. Okay I know what to do.

Then obviously I turned the whole MPH upside down looking for him. Phew, Finally found him. Chatted, played with the soft toys there and went back. =D We went back to where Jian was, this time, finding for Li Huei.

ys : Jian, where's Li Huei?
Jian : She came and she went looking for you!
ys : what?!! Isn't it what you just told me... xD.

Smsed her. She came back with my b'day present! Hahaha. It's the dooodoll with a meaningful meaning behind. =) After that, with a very very slow speed, we were heading to BangsarShoppingComplex.

Walked out of BV, took a cab to BSC. Reached destination.

Had fun playing hide and seek with Jian and Edward! Well, hard to explain what we did. Hahaha. Went into a choc shop where 100g of choc = RM20. Fabulous indeed.
Loitered around and went to Cold Storage as we wanted to buy food and share and make a picnic. LOL.
Had great fun in Cold Storage man. Didn't buy anything since I had to go back real soon.
There's always next time. =)

There was this mega cute boy whom I wanted to pat on his head but, I have no idea why I just made it TOO hard!! =(
I'm so sorry!! He probably had no idea why he got this whack by a stranger.
I got whack back by Jian after that.

Left BSC, walked Jian back home. Took a cab half way, Edward went BV, I went back to PHP and Li Huei went back home too.
Had great fun indeed with they guys. =DD.

Back home. Felt sick. Slept. Wake up and prepared going out for b'day dinner with family.

Dinner at Dragon-i. Reached that place, took quite a lot of pictures.

- They lamen sifu. xD

** This is not the common pau. It's the one has soup inside. Hmmm.

- Lamen with my favourite pork chop!! <33>

Finished eating. Headed back home. Celebrate with b'day cake at grandma's.

- The very creamy cake. =)

Guys, I'm glad to have all of you. ;)

` The advanced b'day wishes --

1. Malavika.
2. Rachel Choong.
3. Jun Jun. :)
4. Li Lian C.
5. Elicia.
6. Jedida.
7. Zi Yet.
8. Kabir.
9. Benjamin Goh.
10. Raymond Tay.

` 09032009. Facebook. =)
1. Katrina Yoong.
2. Aizurra.
3. Gurprem.
4. Pang Yoong.
5. Sook Yaeng.
6. Philip Yim.
7. Mun Foong.
8. Jasmin.
9. Paveena Nair.
10. Jane Wong.
11. Shakila.
12. Euvan.
13. Sarah Xavier.
14. Crystal Chai.
15. Tech Poh.
16. Shen Ni.
17. Rachel Choong. 2nd time. =)
18. Joanne Law.
19. Farah.
20. Jian Foong.
21. Lee Elaine.
22. Edward Ng.
23. Nicholas Tan.
24. Daewin.
25. Atikah .
26. Yagini.
27. Ming Key.
28. Pik Wen.
29. Hazirah.
30. Jessica Lim.
31. Emylya.
32. Vishakan.

` SMS wishes.
1. Yagini.
2. Edward Ng.
3. Mike.
4. Pui Yee.
5. Syahmi.
6. Bryan Hong.

` Face to face!
1. Lavina.
2. Daewin.
3. Joshua Ryan.
4. Palvina.
5 Calvin Wong Man Hou.
6. Jeevan Raj.
7. Li Huei.
8. Ain.
9. Timothy Law.
10. Edward Ng.
11. Jiannnnn Haw.
12. Amrithaa Kaur.

`Personal Message and Status.
1. Tan Su Jean - Facebook status.
2. Chan Pui Yee a.k.a my gf =P - Facebook status.
3. Calvin Wong Man Hou - Facebook status.

` Blog entry. =)
KATRINA! =D

- " When the sun rise up once again dated on the 9th of March 2009, a beautiful angel will be aged 15 this year by the name of Leong Yi Sin, she deserve the happiness she yearn, Happy birthday , my dear friend.

Yi Sin is a girl I known since form 1 when I first met her when we were marching for Bendahara. She's a very kind girl, friendly girl I met. [: And she is my bendahara best partner! <3

And we used to play "acting game" in MSN and we used to chat alot and we "LOL" alot. Thou we don't talk as much as before, we are still friends and she's the best person who you can be with.

She's really smart, and words can describe, SHE'S AWESOME and SHE ROCKS! (:

Yi Sin, if you're reading this, YOU ROCK! Have a awesome birthday! :) Happy Birthday! (: " -


` Presents.
- From family

• Keyboard. =)
• Dinner!!!
• B'day cake? Haha.
  
• The crystal bracelet I wanted. =P
• Ang Pao!!! wahaha.
  

- From friends. =)

• The horse thingy from Lavina. xD.
  
• Doll from Li huei!
  
• Whacks from Jian. =.=!!!
  
• Spiderman from Ed and Jian I thinkkkk. =.=!!!
• the cute mushroom pencilcase and Pilot pen from Syahmi! =)
  

The other post is JUST for the wishes and this one, I guess, I'll make it normal.

So it's 2 hours until 9th March and I'll be officially 15th.
Today was indeed, I guess the most shocking day in my 2009 so far, and just right before my b'day, you gave me your confession. =)
What I must say is, I was indeed very grateful to have you. But not to deny, what you've told me has been simply unbelivable. I cannot tell you how exactly I feel or what do I wanna do about it. But I seriously hope, I won't end up losing you in my life, forever. =)

& dad, mom. I thank you for
- buying me the present!
- upcoming Dinner at my favourite restaurant 2moro. =)
- another gift to come as you promised yea? ;P
- lastly, how can I not thank you for the allowance?! Hah.
You've always been buying the most expensive b'day present for me and I feel bad when you use a big amount of money on me. but one think I'm pretty sure, I'll appreciate it, and you of course! =)

God, I thank you for showing me miracles on the last few days of my 14th. =)
Life's always been hard but love is everywhere, I realised.
I ain't alone, am I? =)

once again, I really really LOVEEE you guys! Who've always been there for me. I never hope to lose any of of you in my life! =)

I'm a big spender. I can't control myself to waste money. XD.
Sometimes, I don't even know where I spend the money on.

Even in Pet Society. . .

I used like 5000 coins to buy Japanese kinda windows?
I just realised I used so much just on windows!! WOW.

I've gotta face my LIFE now. Might update later.

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Went MV and Bangsar just now. Bumped into Thinesh and been told that Sports Day lasted till 1pm plus. and heard that BENDAHARA won! Woots!! Bendahara's glory year man and I'm pretty sure it will last like FOREVER! =P

on the other hand, camwhore pics. =P


Hello kittayyyyyy!!! =D




" ` When love or don't love doesn't make a difference anymore, what should I do?
Can't I get myself in it when I clearly know that I'll get hurt in the end.
I wished I'd never meet you, never know you.
" cause the possibility that you're thinking the same way about me is just too much. "
Everything that had happened in just a blink of eye is far beyond any of our expectations, more like a drama and somehow doesn't fit in the reality.
What should I do? Or what do you want me to do about it? "

ya know what?
I don't wanna try now.
I've gotta stay distant with you.
I'm sorry.
... because It's best for us, ain't it?

& you too, please don't try.

- signing off.

HEY!! so I had this dream which I really really REALLY hope it will come true!!!

*seals lips*

NOT GONNA TELL what izzit about. But it's like, sweet if it actually happens. =DD.

I'm excited. LOL.

On the other hand, am I like making him an important person in my life for now? Hmmm. . .

So, 2moro's schedule is kinda messy. -sigh-

I'm so jealous of you Wong! You've the time to study at home!!! I'm just gonna stuck in MV and Bangsar afterwards and most probably have to spend a period of time alone there. Well, my dad's decision to not allow me to bring my friends to come along. =(
FYI he says that I'm putting them in trouble just to follow me for a short time and blablabla.


lol.

I'm having fever and cold! I have no idea why is it like I always fall sick this year.
Am I like, cursed? O.O


Monkey!! I will be back to my original self where you first met alright. I feel bad too being who I am, or rather to BECOME who I am today which I shouldn't. I hate myself too and It's not low self-esteem. lol. I'd like my old self better of course. I wonder why am I in this shit trouble right now and hardly can get myself outta it.

& note to self - your first rule in life, not to regret anything you do in life.
So, I shall not think about it and find myself excuses to regret? =)

Hey guys,


I feel really really bad for Pn. Julia... Although I'm not sure if I'm supposed to write her name out.
Some damn bastard had poured acids on her face, common sense, a lady who'd have to face it for the rest of her life. The worst thing is, it's highly suspected that they mistaken and poured the acids on WRONG PERSON. How can I forgive you, I believe that she never done anything wrong! and why would she have to encounter it?!
Her eye can't be healed FOREVER.
Bastard, are you REALLY happy now? What would you feel if you were to live with it forever? You'd probably wish to die immediately.


The pengetua and my family were trying to get "YOU DON'T WAIT OUTSIDE THE SCHOOL" into my skull but I guess it just failed. lol. Well. . . just that not anyone of us actually scares standing outside the school. It's a habit, right?
Fine, maybe I do scare but just a little.



Tagged by Shannon. =)


I screwed up 54% of my teenage life.

[ ] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[x] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test.

Total: 2

[ ] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn’t do homework over 5 times
[ ] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[ ] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Total : 4

[ ] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Total : 8

[ ] Pulled down the Fire Alarm.
[ ] Went on Myspace , Facebook , Xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took Pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during School hours.
[ ] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc... During class.

Total : 10

[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[ ] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

Total : 13

[ ] Gotten a call from school.
[ ] Couldn’t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school.
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[ ] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[x ] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.


Total : 15

[x] Faked your parents signature .
[x] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework

Total : 18
MULTIPLY BY THREE : 18 x 3 = 54%

Tag 10 of your friends.

SKIPPED!

Then Repost this & put the Title as "I screwed up __% of my teenage life".

I'm desperate to blog now. =D

I've been waiting for whole day long just to blog man, but had loads of hw.
WhatToDo.

Monday, 02032009.
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Normal routine in school and nothing much really happened. Just normal and boring.
Then it comes to tuition.

The place Ran outta electricity and Sir'd decided to let us off by 5pm. =DD
On a "darker" note, we do have class replacement on the next Monday at 8am to 10am.
OMG man, omg. I'm spending my b'day by waking up early and study.
DUH DUH DUH. B'day cake anyone? =P
Walked to BV, Lavina went home and I walked to Mcd's.
Daewin, Joshua, Mark, Anisha, Asthika, Ashleen and Shamita were there.
Bought McNuggets and of course, nuggets "stealing". LOL.
and Coca-cola stealing too. not gonna say coke. xD.
After an hour, we walked Daewin and Mark back to tuition, since he is so pampered. =P and never told his parents about class was cancelled.
Ditched them half way of course. HAHAHA. shh!! I'm bad I know!
The bad thing is, I was soaked in the rain but had fun!!
Well, rain is friendly when it falls at the right time. =P

Camwhore pic. O.o
Obviously I gained weight and I kid you NOT. You not gonna say I'm thin anymore. =P
cause I did gain weight and screw fat tissues!! xD. Shh.

Tuesday, 03032009.
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Its a beautiful date.
03/03. 09
3 x 3 = 09?

LOL. Su Jean figured it.

Well, suprisingly, I have something to blog about school?

Went PJK, obviously I had nothing to do than loitering around and being lifeless.
Joined Divyaa and gang and they're fun.... and funny too.
It's such an entertainment seeing Hasrul playing basketball.
*inner joke*
Hasrul, you know you're one of the most GENTLEman I've ever met. Haha, In a good way I guess.

and gosh!! You guys can't just watch out your balls?
Wait, it's basketball and football kinda ball, mind you. XD
The football just literally passed my head ya know?! Gosh, what would happen if I didnt squard down?!
Oh yea, there were 3 teams with 3 balls playing 3 different kinda games at the basketball court.
wow wow.

oh yea, basketball is just sexay. HAHA.

Went to library during english class. Did the oral test.
Pn Thanes asked me to sit on the bench but I just became freaking tall sitting on the bench!! =(
I don't like sitting on tall chair, it just gives me and damn dumb and freaky feelings!!
So, I said I'd just sat on the floor. lol!

Sejarah class, Wong wanted me to sit beside him so I did.
He slept and suddenly whole class was staring at him. HAHA.
I actually was asking him to wake up but he just couldn't hear me. Oh well.

okay, so I went home and was gonna have bath. Looked at the mirror and realised that,
My Iris is actually blue for the outer layer and dark brown in the inner layer.
Oooooooooh, that's weird.

Benjamin, I have a new talent that is to keep my eyes open in En Chua's class although I'm incredibly sleepy!! Heheh. I know right you're caught with it. xD.



ps: RUMOURS, I REALLY HOPE YOU LEAVE THE WORLD AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. THANK YOU. The reason is just simple, it doesn't matter to me and I don't wanna know anything.


"... when you see deep into the world, conflicts are all over. "
Absolutely true. I just realised that, Now, whoever I talk deeply to, what I find out is some conflict going on.
Rumours even killing. It's terrible loads of them and what you expect me to do with it?
To be frank, I can't see which is false and which is the right thing anymore.
I'm totally blinded by your rumours. and the worse thing I guess, I don't wish to find out anything, or rather, I DON'T WANT TO, I don't need to.

Get a life and stop all those untrue rumours pls.
At least think bout the people involve in this k. Be considerate!

What I feel is, do you actually care bout how I feel? All what you do is hiding the truth from me and apologise to me for million times. Can't you just treat me as a normal friend or yours instead of feeling scared I'd get ofended? No, Don't worry I'm definitely not gonna do anything even if I know about it. But, aren't you taking advantage that I'm actually not with him anymore? Come on man, I feel so left behind. I mean, you just use all your techniques in getting him with all your supporter and admirers helping you? And yes, some of them actually talk to me and giving me hints about it and hiding the truth from me at the same time. It's like a defence wall of yours. Gosh, I don't really want any hint. Neither am I gonna "investigate" what is wrong or right, or to prove me that my trust doesn't worth it towards him.

I'm not stopping you if you like her but what I scare is, we might lose YOU. As in your real-self. I don't think that'll be fair if it happens. Seriously, it's not more to myself but I feel sad to some of OUR friends. who we used to talk and have fun. I'm not scared of losing to her, I already am anyway. I don't like racing game. Just seriously, none of us like to see that happens. and you will find out someday what she actually does underneath. WE don't wanna cause the conflict by telling, you will know and we'll wait.
If you DO like her, then go for her! I mean, none of us gonna stop you and we'll congratulate you alright.

This settled deep inside, another one comes.
Now what? He has a gf?
Oh great. But I went blur.
You know the word blur?
First, I say I'm not gonna intergorrate him. Second, it doesn't matter to me does it?
Come on, I don't want conflict anymore! I'm left hanging with YES or NO.
How do you feel putting yourself in my shoes?
Forget about jealousy and whether I still like him! Which I don't put it in my consideration.
I still trust him as a friend and I don't wanna lose the trust and taste the terrible feeling once again.
So now, I gotta believe in myself. =). and keep your rumours to yourself!

No, I'm not gonna make a defending wall for myself. I just don't wanna get involved and overwork my brains. Peace man, peace!!

I've already back off and you can continue all you like without me knowing.

I feel sorry to you guys who I pour and release every damn thing. xD.
Sorry!! =( and man, really thank you too.
You guys are like, never abandoned me. xP.
and thank you for not thinking like the others do. =)
and from the botom of my heart, you are really the ones who make the world beautiful when I'm at the place where it's impossible to love.

HAPPY MARCH BABES!!!

My b'day is around the corner. Bleh.
Being nostalgic and looking forward at the same time? Ironic eh.

Below is a highly dangerous emo post. You can stop here. =)



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". . . but his goodness is irresistable. "

OH GOSH!! xP



Gunshot me!

erm, it's a sms thing.

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I can't believe that a little thing could grow hatred in me and you became the first person I ever hate.
Why you? You get on my nerves anytime.
I think everything we had never worth it.
But now, screw that. =)

I'm sorry but
YOU SUCK and I HATE YOU!!!

Finally I said this and meant it.