Title-less

Gaaah, I just gave it a title.

ANYWAY, have you ever had a feeling that you've done SO MUCH for someone who doesn't even appreciate it?

You always thought what you're doing is simply not enough, because you care from the bottom of your heart, you're too afraid to lose that particular someone, be it a friend, your other half or...anyone. Then your life revolves around that person when you do more and more things for them.

It's not that I'm expecting anything in return, but don't you think it's only fair to treat people the way you're treated, or the way you WANT to be treated?

Then you apologize for not appreciating. It doesn't make any sense at all. It's either you appreciate, or you don't.

The longer it gets, you probably grow stronger and resistant to bullshit you're about to hear again. Same story every time, nothing new. and THEN you learn to give up and leave them alone. Not like they'll notice your absence anyway, because they never did as much as what you've done.

Well, after this long rant. My point being, don't ever hurt someone who really appreciated or loved you because when that person realised what she/he's been doing has gone to waste, you're off the list of people-I-care-about.

Love doesn't mean you are still clinging on to the previous relationship, it's to make your life more colourful by filling it with love instead of hatred. Is it necessary to make everything awkward?

D-day awaits

so SPM is in less than 80 days, which explains the title of this blog entry.

Killjoy.

What do I want at this moment?

• a day off without seeing any books
• vacation
  
• to plan for post-Spm activities!
  

I hate how SPM stops us from having fun and how it kills my enthusiasm to blog.

mizchu

Like my favourite song you're a little overplayed,
and like last summer, those memories of you will never fade...

Checked my tweets about 3 months ago, freedom was all to myself and I loved the contentment it gave me. Now what am I? Feeling so empty in your absence.
It's a give and take thing, but if one keeps giving, what can the other one do? Simply taking it for granted, no?

Watched a video on youtube, all I've learnt from it is that not everyone deserves a second chance, I'm guessing I'm one of them. You said, what is done is done, clearly stated there's no compensation can be done. And besides letting it go what can I do?

It's as if I'm holding a glass while you're pouring boiling water to it, it soon pours out and I HAVE to let go of it. Oftentimes, I personally think that giving up is forced by the environment, or the other party.

I'm thinking if my life is a little TOO lucky.
Whenever I'm sad, there's always someone who is willing to cheer me up (but usually not the one I thought I needed the most).
I have a bunch of them who showed me that they really care...
I never had to face and adapt a sudden change in life...
I certainly hope there's no hidden meaning to it because I always thought behind every good thing, bad things await. Since I've been so pretty darn lucky, if bad things await, it must be catastrophic ones... =/

when I say it's okay, it only means it hurts but you wouldn't care if I told you...

just like a fairytale turned cruel

I thought if the ending isn't happy, it might not be the end of your story yet.
but now, happy endings simply mean your story hasn't ended.
Happy endings never existed. Never did, never will.

Have you ever tried holding on to the SLIGHTEST hope and at the same time, it's being crushed by someone?
Or have you ever waited for a change that would never come?
People do get tired...

If I say hope is worthless, you cant trade it with money neither can it fulfill your hunger, It's a lie.
Without hope, anyone will be lost of direction in life.
A very big part of me wished that the hope you were giving would forever be there, so at the very least I had one more reason to stay by your side.

I've always been waiting, outside of your castle, hoping that someday you'll let me in.
But you never did, and I reckon you never will...

So if you happen to read this,
If you need me, you'll find me and you can.
I always needed you, but now I have to learn to be independent. Perhaps I shouldn't always miss you or hope that you'll talk to me

comeback

It's already April and my last post was sometime back in March. I'm sorry, didn't have much to post about except my boring life routine until now, as most of you already know, prefect camp was held last Friday.... so YAY cause I finally have something to talk about? =D

It's beyond what words can describe really.
Fabulous, fantastic, amazing... you name it! It's as awesome as that.
Now all that's left with me are memories and life lessons.

Frankly speaking, I WAS a typical city kid. Flashback to few years ago when I went for the last camp, I really wouldn't try the food served to us without saying "gosh...this looks terribly unappetizing" and when you have that mindset, the food is obviously gonna be terrible. This is how I LIVED for the past few years... well, look at me now! =D all grown up. (okay maybe not) BUT I tried everything there without complaining and as I told my lovely 5 cekap-ians, I LOVED THE FOOD.

This is to all the villagers of Kampung Pasir Putih,

You guys are seriously awesome! It was indeed a fruitful trip to visit your village. How shameful I was seeing most of their houses are so well-kept, in good and clean condition even though there were only old folks in the house! So thoughtful of y'all to actually offer us food after helping y'all out. Last but not least, don't worry about us city kids, we all deserve to do house chores at times.

I'm currently dry on words so...till then! see you (:

insanity

Catreena said:
fireworks XD
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ys. said:
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ys. said:
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HAHAHA nothing also we laugh like mad
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totally made my day (Y)

you tear love apart

Ever care bout someone, anyone at all and it hurts?

Well, I've asked that way too many times.

When you seem to care too much, the next thing possible to do is to stop.
Stop loving.
because if you don't love, they won't bother you and thus, you will not hate.

Holiday mood - on.

Late post for the past, short, insufficient holidays. So short that I couldn't find time to blog about what happened. LOL

Anyway, spent the first Sunday in UM for the 10-hour BM seminar.
The next 3 days bumming around in the house but I liked it very much so you can stop the whispering now.

Here comes Thursday.
Went to Amcorp Mall with Li Huei and had some short-and-sweet shopping session, well, it's just her basically. =P

Had lunch at this restaurant where this man kept staring at me weirdly.
He just couldn't...take his eyes off of me, it isn't something good.

Bookxcess, this is where the true entertainment is. LOL, well, I joke! But that book store is really amazing, it got me hooked with their receipt stories. Not to forget their giant receipt posters too!
Bought 4/12 of the Little Miss collection, Little Miss Contrary FTW! (:

I miss how we crossed the road la, beetch. =P
Cross the first lane, waited on the dotted line in between 1st and 2nd lanes and all of a sudden, vehicles in both lanes started moving. LOL, cross or die situation much?
As you know, we are STILL alive. Therefore, we successfully reached the park as we planned to. Took photographs and I'm happy!

Well, happy things don't last long, do they? It started drizzling and thus, we HAD to go back to Amcorp Mall. Grabbed Starbucks and waffles before heading back home.

More to come! Looking forward to our upcoming adventures. =D
I'll end this post with photos taken in the park!
Enjoy (:

Kick start.

HELLO WORLD ;

oh well, it's 6am in the morning. The reason why I'm here is that I couldn't get damn wi-fi at the driving centre yesterday during the lecture, it was pretty tiring.
THEN I was forced to take this cough syrup which made me miserably drowsy and I slept from 6pm till one hour ago.

Went to Hotel Armada for lunch with the others who went for the same session yesterday! It was quite adventurous I must say, consider we only had half an hour for lunch and we wasted 10 mins just to wait for our pies to get heated up.

I am going to be REALLY busy.
I wanted to post up my plans but naaaah, stalkers of all sorts.

man, now I'm all drowsy again, probably gonna crash in school. ):

So, thanks. =D

extraordinary

I love purple, so let it be purple.

09 March 2011 marked the first day of my sweet 17th.
You thought it was sweet 16th? You have my assurance, no one really had sweet 16th. SO, I'm predicting 17th to be good! =D well, not only predicting, I will make it good. By that, I need whoever had been there for me, to be here. You guys are irreplaceable

SMS
To start it off, we have those really loyal ones who send their wishes at 12am sharp! or those who INTENDED to but fell asleep and those who sent it slightly off 12 =P It's the thought that counts. I really can't thank y'all enough for those who did.
My dad is one of them. I have a super dad, I must confess.

WISHES
In the morning, dad wished me another 3 times when we were on the way to school!
Did I mention I love wishes? I wouldn't get annoyed with however many wishes you'd give me, really. =D it makes me feel so...blessed.

Anyway, upon reaching school, Shannon, Abhi and Shipren wished me happy birthday with extreme enthusiasm, which REALLY made my day, and Su-Yi did the same, followed by Thaca and Andrew in the auditorium. =D

Then the list goes on so long it'd probably reach 10 pages if I were to write it down!
I'm grateful for it, people! It's inexplicable.

and of course, thanks Nathalia for the bigggg hug!
Nishanth for hoping Oreo God to bless me. LOLOL
Mirzan for stepping on my shoe (...again!) and asking me to take drugs which I probably won't listen but thx anyway for the creativity!

& of course your 10 seconds time just to post 'happy birthday! =D' on my Facebook wall!
I appreciate them and you know it, right? =D You should have gotten my reply on YOUR wall cause I think you deserve it.

the best I've seen so far is probably from Mike,
"I wish for every candle on your birthday cake you get a wish granted"
that's so thoughtful! (:

PRESENTS
thx a bunch to Pui Yee, Yarlini, Su Jean, Melanie, Kok Yan, Katrina, Pei Ying, Li Huei and Jemimah for the presents! No worries, I love them all (:

and also to Khairi, Edward and Mike for the presents I have yet to receive.
promise is a promise, uh? ;P


CARDS
boy, I have no idea how much effort and time you guys have put in making those b'day cards! It's so beautiful! Katrina and Mel, you guys rock! :D



CAKES
okay here comes the cakes. *drum rolls* if love food put your hands up! I had 3 cakes on that day altogether.

1st one was from 5 dedi students and it was supposedly en Faizal's cake but I was given half of the HUGEEE Blueberry cake when they were told it was my b'day as well. heh. Lovely people.

2nd comes the Cheesecake from Coffee Bean! thx to Katrina, I was surprised. (:



3rd one is from my family. CHOCOLATE INDULGENCE. <---- sorry, I didn't mean to do it. =P



BIRTHDAY SONGS
okay guys, here is my sincere apology for not knowing what to do while you guys are singing a happy b'day song for me! I know all I did was stoning, and when I was asked to give a 'speech' I secretly said I love y'all. Sorry, it was not said aloud but know that I doooooo!


so, thank you, to EVERYONE who sang me happy b'day song, alright? =D
I'm too afraid to leave out anyone's name if I were to list it down. ):

CELEBRATIONS
Basically went for lunch with Katrina and Pei Ying

• Kuriya Japanese Restaurant at BSC
  
• Tutti Fruitti
  
• Marquise Patisserie & Chocolaterie
  

and of course, celebration with familyyyyy. =D
No pics for this one cause my camera refused to focus and we eventually got fed up. Now all the pics are in my dad's iPhone and my MAXIS is too screwed up to receive mms. Yeah. You get my drift.

Few days earlier I have an early b'day treat from Jemimah, dessert @ Delicious (:

Flourless orange cake

sorry I love exotic stuff. (:

and this post shall end with how much I eat.
Don't you say I starve myself for life maaaan. ):

soba noodles, teriyaki chicken + rice, salad and fruit! =D

hell and heaven; there's only a line in between.

Redundancies do fail, people.

Hello world;

Japan quake, tsunami and the aftershocks truly left an impact in EVERYONE'S life simply because it's the worst crisis since world war 2. sigh.

We see how many nations offer a helping hand for Japan but on the other hand, how many heartless creatures are criticizing about the explosions of their nuclear plants. Hello, let me emphasise again, redundancies don't always work. It's too unreasonable to expect the nuclear plants to KEEP working after a 10m-tsunami. Some even say it was a mistake to build nuclear power plant at coastal areas. Well said! Why didn't you speak up back then?

Let's get our priority right. Be kind and you shall get kindness in return whenever you need it.
After all, Japan is one of the most generous countries who always offers help to the others! Is this what Japan is suppose to get in return? I suppose not.

Don't worry about your lifetime supply of sushi might get cut off.
Shut up about your Power Rangers series.

Worry about their economical crisis, their people and most of all, their situation.

#prayforjapan

Get back up real soon, Japan. (:

awww

Girls are like apples on trees.
The best ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten ones from the ground, that aren't as good, but are easy.
So the apples at the top think there's something wrong with them.
But really, they are amazing.
They just have to wait for the right boy to come along.
The one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree

; Hello to the really blissful world

LOL

I'm feeling quite content today after 10 hours of sleep. =P
It's not laziness, mind you. I believe a short break is essential for a longer journey ahead (:

I had a lot to spill but now, it's all gone.
Time does erase everything, doesn't it?

Anyway! Regarding my personal messages...
They all may sound a little pessimistic but hey! that's how I look at life. I wouldn't admit I'm a pessimist and I'm not living in denial by stating this.
Some people might look at the cup half-full whereas the rest look at it half-empty, I would say it all depends on the situation.
What does one get if he/she gets his/her hopes high but in the end it means nothing at all?
So why can't we all be realistic? (:
By that I mean, we CAN hope for the best, but also expect the worst.

;That's me.

and, at times, I seriously wish to have some freedom to speak up.
Every thought we have seems to be the vaguest idea, I think it's such a shame.
When we get the courage to express ourselves, it becomes a critic JUST BECAUSE someone doesn't like it. Isn't one of the human rights freedom of speech? Why should this happen, I don't understand.


Call me dim but I don't get it at all!

you don't practise what you preach, do you?

Love is not a maybe thing. You know it when you love someone.
-Lauren Conrad

Pn Norhayatee, I sincerely hope you'll have a speedy recovery. There may be times where I feel you didn't do a good job, but that dates way back. Just the day before this incident happened, you congratulated me on my bio marks and taught me something new, I wish I could tell you that I really appreciated it. You're a good teacher.

Till then we shall pray for you. (:

lost.

Hello world ;

sometimes it hurts to hear those whispers behind your back, and yes. When I said I HEAR whispers behind my back that means it's not a whisper anymore, just letting you know that you failed to keep that down.

Anyway, It doesn't only happen to me, I know it happens everywhere to everyone.

I don't give a hoot about what you think; But my sincere sympathy to your pity self, you're so pathetic.

People lie. People fight. People leave.
Seriously, It happens to frequently that it's becoming your second nature.

Despite all this, I am still gonna smile and look at the bright side shouldn't I? (:
Walk out of the things that don't worth a moment, Imma move on and appreciate anything and everything that make the night brighter than day (:

'I'm okay' is not a lie anymore.

challenging enough

Maaan, I should probably change the 'day' to 'month' since I just can't seem to keep up with this challenge ):

ANYWAY, HERE YOU GOO. since dog days are temporarily ended.
something I've read b4: Late February is supposed to be the dogs days
True that. In every aspect possible. =/

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Apparently, gold medals are all you're fighting for, you don't give a hoot bout what you're going to lose.
Well, This is the difference between the both of us, let's put it this way, without friends, who are you going to share your victory with?
I'm not a fame monster, that is why I love myself.
I know what I'm doing, I enjoy the journey, I ain't gonna live with regrets.

My narcissism just vanished in thin air.

LET''S MOVE ON.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

My decision on not going the distance to explain myself anymore, even though it means losing; I'm exhausted. You're not worth it either.


Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Forgetting me; forgetting what I've done.

Ohai, 10 years down the road, I'll be better than you (:

...and it's yours sincerely

The ones I think are pretty true will be in bold whereas the one I'm not too sure will be in italics, okay? =D

taken from Urbandictionary. Didn't expect so many things to be accurate though! =/

Katherine

-She has no problem saying what she's thinking and if you call her late at night you will hear her complain the duration of the phone call.

- She is pretty damn awesome and she loves her friends.

-She will not engage you in conversation unless you can get her attention by breaking someones glass table at a random party. (I'm sure there's some other way.)

-She is beautiful in every way and can break into random songs at any time.

-You can ask her almost anything without being judged.

-You can say anything remotely stupid and she will laugh about it.

-She is one of a kind so if your lucky enough to meet her don't let her go, you will regret it.
( I'm not sure but a few of you told me this before =/ )

-Katherines tend to be rather shy when you first meet them but once you get to know them, they come out of their shells.

-Likes to hold an entire class in college up because she can't be bothered (as she always says) to read or answer a question. ( LOL! )

- smart with life, always living for whats ahead of her. (maybe it takes time to prove this..?)

-don't let the cute face fool you, she can be naughty when you trigger her& great in bed. (whaaat)

-you will never forget her.. beautiful in her own way, yet insecure about herself.

-always laughing her heart out, yet doesn't take life too seriously.

-be loyal to her and she will show you the same respect back. be a bitch& she will destroy you with just words. (yeah take note of this (: )

-great person to be with, take a katherine as soon as you find her.

- The world can seem hard for Katherine's sometimes but a break is coming their way!

- She has a great GUYfriend. He will always be by her side no matter what.

-She has a lot of friends, but can only trust few with many secrets.

- She loves almost everything that life throws at her.

-She loves volleyball, converses, her friends and a special person and her life.

-She couldn't live without that person, even if she didn't meet him in the first place.

-She loves art and scenery photography.

-People think they know everything about her, but they don't; There is much more to discover.

-She is not a poser, but just herself. (heh)

-She doesn't try to be like anyone but herself.

- She's a keeper, a lover and a fighter, a winner, loves to act like a complete fool in order to make others smile.

-A people pleaser, but can deny the utmost of things.

sweet 16's coming to an end

Thank God for that (:

sweetness redefined for my 16th year.

I feel very strongly 'bout everything happens for a reason

we were a melody, but it's gone out of tune.
I've decided to put an end to our forever.
I knew your promises were like empty shells, beautiful appearance but they couldn't sustain our relationship, could they?

#thatswhyyourmyex

I'm so sick of some of you really.
You spend your time making fun of the others, you criticise as if you're the best amongst us.
You simply hate everyone.
We don't talk, neither do we greet each other when we meet, but when you need anything, I'm like your long lost childhood friend whom you would run up to so excitedly.
If you don't like me, why bother pretending we're normal? you know we're not. Or NOW I know we're not, so I won't put up a show with you anymore, it's just childish.

You can't afford losing but I'm not at fault. Now that you've brought everyone into these sufferings,I don't understand; is winning really worth fighting for, when you know you're going to loose everything else?

I am sorry for neglecting this blog, I've been busy, maybe busier than my parents. =P

Well, I kid. Will update properly next time, I sure hope it won't be long till the next time!