gone are the good old days...

I miss 2008. =(
cause I'm not ready for 2010! -and 2009 wasn't exactly a good year- though it's ALREADY 2010... it's something totally different and it sucks! how can I ever go through thisss... =/ well, this is life and everyone has to go through... and I know the future will come... but I just feel there's something blocking the way... I'm so weird... =/ but try to get the picture...

Anyway, don't you feel stressful even when you're online? like blogging. Blogs are like personal places where you express how you feel and stuff... but, when PEOPLE-excluding friends- start "stalking"... it doesn't feel good... give us spaces to breathe, pls.

Fifteen =)

You take a deep breath
And you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
And try to stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year
And you're gonna be here for the next 4 years
In this town
Hopin' one of those Senior boys
Will wink at you and say 'I haven't seen you around before'

Cuz when you're fifteen, somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Feelin' like there's nothin to figure out

Count to ten
Take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to red-head Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughi'n at the other girls
Who they think they're so cool
We'll be out of here as soon as we can

And then you're on your very first date
And he's got a car
And you're feelin like flyin
And you're momma's waitin up
And you're thinkin he's the one
And you're dancin around the room when the night ends
When the night ends

Cuz when you're fifteen, somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
And your first kiss makes your head spin around

But in your life you'll do things
Greater than datin the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted
Was to be wanted
Wish you could go back
And tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams in life
And Abigail gave everything she had
To a boy who changed his mind
And we both cried

Cuz when you're fifteen, somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Don't forget to look before you fall

I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be
at fifteen

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la...

You're very first day
Take a deep breath girl
And take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

yo people. I shut my thumb in the car door............. I can't write and my hw piles up. =(
I was forced to go for accounts class cause there's no other replacement. Teacher did my hw for me though. =D. but my thumb still hurts! Although pain killer helps but it's not practical to take it so much just to ease my pain temporary... I think... it's just like you're lying to yourself... I know it doesn't relate to this matter but you get my drift... lol.

Anyway, I guess ya'll know bout the dragon boat mishap right? and yea... a friend of mine passed way in that accident... R.I.P yong xiang. =( well, my family and I felt sorry for his family... he's the only child and he's same age as me... now, even I'm paranoid bout going for school activities... =/ but the government's decided to increase the koko passing point to 30%... I even wonder if teachers nowadays ACTUALLY put students before themselves... they increase the marks just to let students go for those dangerous activities? Well, thats my thought. I really don't know bout them... what I know is yong xiang wanted to get more koko marks so he went for that dragon boat training... which ended up in death...

Teachers nowadays, some of them don't even have the passion in teaching, do they? Emphasise on the word SOME, pls. =)

though I TRIED to keep emo things to myself, but... I really got fed up of being scolded! Gosh... I got scolding for every damn thing I do. I surf net in the room, MY ROOM, i got scolded... you dun like me in the room and not interacting with family, yes... I'm at fault for that, but have u asked me why am I like that?! can't you not scold me without knowing the truth behind... I just wish to be perfect so I dun need to get any scolding from anyone! but no one is perfect right? I just wish to die every damn time i get scolding! haiz.... if you really wanna scold, scold the walls!! they dun have feelings... I'm a human being! I DO have feelings....

hi people =/

lol. I've been quite busy lately. With tuitions of course (=.=!!) okay so I'll be having tuitions during the weekends this year. how great right. I won't have reason to look forward to weekends anymore like I used to. =( lol. So... form 4's absolutely hard. I even wonder if i can survive these 2 years. I still can't believe we're so desperate for koko marks this year, it's just the beginning, first week of january. so, treat me well, 2010. or 2010 just hates me =(.

ON THE BRIGHTER NOTE, I've got rid of the damn class-streaming system of the school! haha. I don't need to face the -unfair reason- anymore!

form 3's, work HARD for your PMR! the straight a's don't come easily.

and gosh!! pls tell me what's so WRONGGG with this damn country!

Hong Kong was awesomeeee... =)

Went all around HongKong and shopped till I didn't feel my legs were mine anymore. Like, from 1pm -arrived in hk- till 2am in the midnight? Cause it was beloved CHRISTMAS so they extended their business hour... It was fun anyway! =) Disneyland was fantastic. really felt like it's a fantasy there.

HK couples are so sweet.

They're open-minded. *hints*

They're mostly rich people. Like, buying 7 LV's one shot.

Departure is never easy. =(. So depressed as we had to come back... not that M'sia is bad, but overseas are always more interesting to discover. =x

I saw the most beautiful fireworks ever in MALAYSIA for the new year's! like woah, more colourful than the ones in HK during christmas.