Here is my rant bout 2010.

2010 is coming to an end. Being me, I'm feeling perplexed as ever.

Possibilities of feeling emotional :
1) I vow to let go of someone I like, which is nearly impossible as you would put it. What a way to end 2010, right?
2) SPM is not far away.
3) Graduate from the school and getting into the REAL deal- cruel world, or as I call it the 2nd Hell.
4) I don't recognize myself anymore and I'm not even kidding here. Sometimes I just feel that I've changed a lot, not able to figure out whether it's a good thing.

2010's been good, but I hope for the better for 2011.

I've truly learnt a lot about

Relationship
you love someone and it's not necessary for them to love you back.
Don't miss someone as if you're missed the same way, cause it'd only hurt you.
Quote Mike, the one you're missing won't ever know how much you miss him or how much you're suffering from missing him.
Conclusion? Give it up before it gets deep.
Happy endings in fairytales NEVER existed.

Friendship
Friends are the only ones who will have your back, at all times.
No matter how you fell flat on your face in relationship, no matter what kind of trouble you've got yourself into, they're always there.
I'd choose friendship over relationship, after everything that had happened.

Family
They're the anchor amidst all the highs and lows. Enough said for this one.

2011, please be better.

They'd say it's a shame to hide your love, not able to express it to the person you're madly in love with. As for me, all I'm gonna do is to bury my feelings and have a new start.
Sadistic as ever, this is how life works.

one litre tears.

Elaine :

darling sayang 2011~ ♥
part 1:
seriously, even the synopsis of our stories are really far beyond the capacity of facebook typing limits even when we only been together for like A MONTH! X)
A really true friend, that i trust! :) you helped and gave me lots n lots, still rmb that you recommended me to be one of the co-op's member even when i... was new, and.. continue in part2! *too long :P

part2:
share bout your crush with me, same house for sports! i was really overjoyed to
have such a good n caring friend like you :'D we even went to BSC together! :P
and later on we bcame darling and sayang, that was so memorable! ♥ we even got wrote in for the prefect selection together, too bad, i left when i got it :( but i stil...l miss you so much after 4 years! ♥...
continue part 3! xD

part3:
i truly apprectiate what u've done for me and i will never forget our deep love of friendship! ♥ T^T
i can t never afford to lose you as you are my number1 bestie and number1 sayang! ♥
LOVE YOU MUCH SAYANG! ♥
...MWAH! ♥

Bryan Ong.

2020 oh hello there. I remember you coming up to me and ask for my email. Hahah, you seem like a nice girl to me. Had some great conversation with you. :)

Bryan Wang

Dear 2011, I'm not too familiar with you, but plenty of my friends are, and I can assume you're pretty awesome too :D, good luck for SPM next year :D,

Well, blame it on boredom but those messages are really touching.
Few more messages like this actually but just wanna make this a quick update for the neglected blog.

I want you to know that I'll love you always, though I don't say it.
I'm really sorry I wasn't at my best, seriously. So much of drama's been going on but now I'm all better. Without anyone of you, I wouldn't be what I am now. Thank you. (:
of course, THANKS to those who are always here for me when I fall and say "I'll have your back!" that's indeed helpful!
Last but not least, people who make me smile. (:

x

As I promised, this post is gonna be a reminisce of 2010, a good ending for better comings I suppose. It's gonna be pretty long. You're warned. (:

January
First or second day of school was scary. Frankly speaking, I'm paranoid to be streamed, I never thought I'm good enough compared to other brilliant students. Well, I got into 4 cekap and absolutely thankful for it.
'4 cekap (:' on the exercise books definitely make a good memory in 2010.

February
Oh I only can think of CNY, didn't go to some fancy restaurant for reunion dinner, instead, we had steamboat at home. It was indeed a great bonding time. (:



March
*drum rolls* IT'S MY B'DAY MONTH YO!
okay maybe not so captivated.
9th of March was the FIRST day of the FIRST exam ever in form 4,
subjects? BM and SEJARAH.
But got lovely presents from people, and b'day wishes that flooded my FB account.
I seriously love you guys! <3 style="font-size:130%;">

April
April fools. Got teased by Man Hou for laughing too much. X)

May
Probably the hardest month to endure but hey! it's the past now.
I learnt from it, I've seen the worst one can do.
Mid term results were satisfying. (:

June
went to the Lighthouse Orphanage for a visit. That's indeed memorable.
Some people need a lifetime just to figure what life is all about, what we should treasure and such. I'm lucky enough to realise all of those things in 2010.



July
I was in the midst of preparation for August's monthly test. Knowing me, it didn't turn out the way I expected it to be.
Despite that, Katrina and I entered the Giant Board Game at Times Square, didn't expect to win really, but WE DID! The happiness is beyond what words can describe.
We went to do facial too! oh boy, we suffered like cows.

our prize!

August
Okay this is so dramatic.
It all started with my question to Farahin, "Why are we going to the auditorium?" "for some BM choral speaking" she replied.
In my head, I was imagining our school people were gonna perform some choral speaking, it certainly didn't excite me.
But it seemed pretty serious in the auditorium, with En Khairi's talk and all.
GUESS WHAT? We're getting outta the school for a month! Okay, for the bored, I find it'd make a good getaway from all these dramas which have been going on in the school.
Definitely a good way to meet new friends.
This is the month when I found out what it takes to make a good friend.

I actually miss the outfit which I once laughed at.

Okay I'll stop here for tonight. Gonna crash! xx

Day 1 - something I hate about myself

I, sometimes take jokes to heart.
I don't take it seriously when someone confesses simply because I doubt if anyone would like me.

I push myself too hard.
I compare sometimes, which indirectly upsets me.

worst of them yet,
I don't have the initiative to make the first move to get someone I like.

I KNOW I had another challenge but I didn't like it. Cause I don't wanna frigging describe what I'm wearing. So well, I doubt if anyone of you out there who really understands me, I'll take this opportunity to tell you about myself. :P



Day 01 - Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

It's been a long time, well, I doubt if anyone still reads this, but stats tell me yes so it's a yes then.

I'll have a PROPER update b4 2010 ends. Like a grand finale for 2010 to end. 2010's been torturous really.




Have you ever loved someone so much you'd give an arm for?

Yes I have.

Yet what happened? Conclusion : I can't be bothered no more.

Emotions just HAD to hunt me down once in a blue moon, uh?

I can't get you off my mind.

(:

sometimes I don't seem to blog about happy things because I don't wanna jinx it. I'm scared. Some point in life where you seem to be boasting how blissful your life is THEN everything starts to fall. That sucks, doesn't it?