Just read one of my primary besties' update on facebook and he says he finally realized the mistake of leaving his girl 5 yrs back for the slightest reason and the best thing is, they seem to get back together now. Sweet isn't it? =)

But I'd like to remind myself again not to hope for another miracle.


and yes, celebrated grandma's b'day this morning before I went for 6 hours of tuition which made me feel brainfried. =/

After 16 years of being with her almost everyday in my life, for my age, I think I should celebrate with her as she is the one always, and NEVER forgets anyone's b'day in the house. I really appreciate her, I might not say it but deep down I know I love her. Maybe it just runs in the blood that we hardly say it out but we really care about each other. We might fight sometimes when we get annoyed with each other. I hereby apologize.

There are times when I wanted to just walk away.
There are times when I wanted to leave the house.
There are times when I really care about you and get frustrated when you don't listen.
There are times when I just want to complain to dad like you always do complain about me.
There are times when I want to explain why.
Despite all those, I still love you. =)

I might get bored of staying at home.
I might get irritated of hearing your lectures,
but I really thank you for just everything you've done.

After facing so much of obstacles, I've come across that family is still the most important, they'll never leave us.
Despite how upset things could make me feel, home is the only place I can cry out loud.

I could feel how upset she was knowing my dad had work and couldn't celebrate with her. Since I had some cash with me so why not just treat her with an awesome lunch =P So I went to Bangsar South and bought the lunch plus different flavours of cakes from Secret Recipe. xD
Well, it was supposed to be surprise. I only told her I'm going out. I came back standing at the door with a huge secret recipe bag and wished her happy birthday. She was extremely happy which made me happy too. I understand it wasn't abalone or shark fins, but she kept praising it was probably the best lunch she ever had. I'm pretty sure she had better but just didn't want to disappoint me. lol.

Anyways, dad's celebrating with her tomorrow. =)


once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

She's quite young FYI.

The awesome getaway plan ;P

So today I woke up at 9am after 6 hours of sleep. Went to MV for the educational fair. Bought myself a pair of heels earrings before that. =)

Headed to Times Square at 12pm. First time got on Komuter. (=.=) Reached Sentral and took a damn super duper loooooong way to the opposite site just to take monorail to Times Square.

then we were FINALLY there. Like a 1pm. Ran to the washroom.

Then went to register the giant board game which is today's highlight =)

Yup, so basically I thought hell a lot of people were joining. But luckily not the early slot. Thank God. =) So we're got a place. Ate at KFC where I learnt my lesson not to order Pepper Chicken Crunch next time and Katrina learnt hers not to order the garden salad which only costs RM3.80.

I hate myself for can't stop eating Mcd's spicy chicken mcdeluxe and now, pepper chicken crunch with chili sauce.

We had only half an hour to eat. So I was eating the pepper chicken crunch and grabbing my lemon tea at the same time. Damn malu man. (=.=)

Luckily the competition is just in front of KFC. So ran there, took pictures and the game started!




We were supposed to choose the colour of our team, in my thought, we're both bendaharians so I chose yellow =P


I was damn jakun actually. The other 3 teams have adults to accompany them. So actually I think Kat and I were the youngest there. =X

Let me talk about the game. We were playing Saidina, the Saidina board is 30 x 30 feet! And the shoplets on board are the ones in Times Square. Before we start the game we were given RM15,000 and supposed to choose 5 companies randomly from the stack of cards. This part, I admit, I kinda cheated. I sensed that Vivo would be one of the expensive companies so I chose that. =X and it's actually the MOST EXPENSIVE! Whoever drops by would have to pay RM3,900! Where others only RM600?

So Kat and I built 2 stores under Vivo. and well, the other 2 under some cheaper companies la.
Thanks for the MC's help. =D
We also owned 2 services. So people basically would have to pay Rm350 whenever they drop by any of them.

Okay skip everything else. Once, I threw the dice and it actually stood by its edge. If you get what I mean , I don't even know how to explain it it was so ODD! and also once, I moved on with 21 steps. Awesome no? =)

But quite a few times I stopped at places like No parking or decision which made me loose money.

I lost faith in winning, one of the reasons is they have adults in their groups, we don't. I think they'd be so much wiser in this kinda business game right? and also, we only left RM4000 I guess. More or less.

After 45 mins the game ended. We were asked to wait for the results which were announced after 10 mins. We saw them preparing the prizes, the first place would get goodies and Saidina game. 2nd was like 8 party spraying cans. (=.=) 3rd and 4th were also spraying cans.
-yes I realized it sounds like pesticide thank you-

So of course I'd hope to get first! =D since my Saidina is old.
Did I tell ya'll I grew up with it? =D
Awesome times playing that with my family from 9am till 3am.

When they were announcing the results, I felt happy when they didn't announced yellow team first cause they'd be the last =/
Neither 3rd.
So I was guessing 2nd.
No............
SO WE WON! Omg!! We jumped for joy. =DDD

Well, we didn't go for the prize btw. =)

Guess what was our prizes besides Saidina sets?!

RM50 SUBWAY VOUCHER!
RM50 FACIAL TREATMENT VOUCHER
CLOTHES VOUCHER
PAPA JOHN'S PIZZA BUY 1 FREE 1 VOUCHER!

OMGGGGGGGG!!


OKAY THIS IS THE STUPID PART.

We decided to spend all those vouchers. So we went to the beauty salon and had the aroma face treatment which was said to last only 1 hour. THAT'S WHEN I FIRST FELT THE PAIN IN MY LIFE. SWEET 16!
The beautician did the extraction. It felt just like you've been injected hundred times!!
It was so painful till my tears started flowing. =( But I couldn't scream for pain because it happened for about 20mins. OUCH!

Then after everything, which is about half an hour, I was asked to relax, or sleep if I desire to.

And.....I.....did....

Time passed by....the feeling is so familiar I'd know it had passed 1 hour.
Then slowly I got irritated.
I so wanted to scream that I wanna go home and where the heck is that beautician for leaving me in the room with so buddist music which made me feel CALM. yeah. I don't like the calmness sorry.

THERE SHE FINALLY CAME IN and so was the treatment done.
GUESS WHAT TIME? 6.40pm.
2 HOURS. awesome.

Thank you for making me pay RM60 (because the while treatment was RM100)
Thank you for making me go home late.
Thank you for the missed calls from everyone.

Hurriedly went to Subway.
BROUGHT 4 SETS OF SUBWAY HOME~ ~
Subway is to die for. =)

Then again the whole journey of changing monorail to LRT then cab back home.
Reached home at 8pm.
Shot dead by the family thank you.

-The end-




THERE, WE'RE PROVEN THAT YELLOW ALWAYS WINS! HA!


damn long post uh-huh.

The feeling is so strong that I don't belong.

omg tuitions pls stop filling up my holidays! =(

First week is almost coming to an end and I've been having tuition for 4 days. For this week, I only have one day which is tomorrow for MYSELF thank you.

Planning to go for the coffin exhibition, movie and Times square with Kat =)
30x30 feet Saidina FTW. =D

So, another 3 days will be gone.

Some maths here, I'll only have altogether, 5 days of holidays.

WAIT BUT NO. Minus one more day for something in the tuition place.

4 days outta the 14 days for relaxing. A-W-E to the SOME.

Been watching Autumn's concerto and it's amazing.

Hating the annoying world cup tab on firefox which keeps changing colours.

After the pouring rain, the rainbow shall show its magic. The sun shall shine. =)

Life isn't all about sadness, no?
I've showered in the pouring rain. I've got sick. Now, it's time to get recovered.

Then again, I should appreciate what I have instead of mourning over what I've lost. Or what have left me.

Being forgetful isn't bad all the time ;P
Short-term memory, pls hit me.

My apologies to whoever I've hurt. But I've realized, life isn't all about me, myself and I.

You have low self-esteem, but am I the one to be blamed?

YES, I AM FAKE.

If that makes you happy.

I can understand that someone who doesn't know me, hates me. Because they won't know what I probably would be thinking, what would I do for someone I care.

But when the world shuts down on me, you're with THEM. This is what hurts most. I swear.

I can stand if you hate me. I can stand that we're not talking. I can stand that you unleash anger on me. But what I can't stand is the person who was closest to me, doesn't understand me, siding with the world behind my wall, protesting me. Saying I'm fake, saying their penalization is because I really am fake.

I can't believe. I can't believe that everyone in this world really wears a mask. Everyone is two-faced.

I stayed by your side, I thought I could make you happy. I thought I could be the one who is by your side when the world walks out of your life. But I'm stupid, I'm too naive. My brains don't have the slightest capacity to think. I'm a dumbass. I'm an idiot. The world walks out of my life as well as you. I finally understand the quotation, "the truth is, everyone is going to hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth suffering for."

You're not worth.


I'm trying hard. I don't look for you just to get myself used to the life without you.

So today is the day, the last things, whatever relates to you will get deleted of my life.

If this is what suits you most,

I've never loved. I've never cared. I've put on a mask to pretend the best to make you fall for me. I was just pretending to be nice. I actually hated you so much.

This is based on what you think. But the truth is, I was never like that.

If I'd decide to care, I would really do it.
If I'd decide to stay, I wouldn't leave.
If I'd decide to love, I really thought you worth it.
But they're all from my heart. They were never fake.

I hate giving up but I just don't have anymore reasons to hold on to it.
and I hate myself whenever I have to give up, thank you.

Maybe, maybe I should learn how to endure with this.

Maybe I'm too childish.

Maybe I don't know that much.

Maybe I'm just too far from perfect.

After all, should I just appreciate the lessons learnt?

It's funny how people go back to the beginning after everything.

If you think that money or status or worldly success are the only goals in life, then you will never understand a Pisces.

Rather true:

Pisces tend to like mobility and moving around. For them too much stability feels like a restriction on their freedom. They hate to be locked in one location for ever.


Pisces you will experience these fluctuations and will need a lot of patience to see things stabilize. Pisces are moody, intuitive, affectionate and difficult to get to know. Only time and the right attitude will yield Pisces' deepest secrets. However, when in love with a Pisces you will find that riding the waves is worth it because they are good, sensitive people who need and like to give love and affection.
(though the last sentence sounds rather perasan =.= )

Money is generally not that important to Pisces. Of course they need it as much as anyone else, and many of them attain great wealth. But money is not generally a primary objective. Doing good, feeling good about oneself, peace of mind, the relief of pain and suffering - these are the things that matter most to a Pisces.


They tend to be generous and perhaps overly charitable. Almost any kind of misfortune is enough to move a Pisces to give. Even when Pisces are not rich, they still like to spend money on helping others. In this case they should really be careful, however: they must learn to say no sometimes and help themselves first.
-I guess this is something my parents hate bout me. LOL.-

Because of all their caring and generous characteristics, Pisces often choose professions through which they can help and touch the lives of other people. That is why many Pisces become doctors, nurses, social workers or teachers. Sometimes it takes a while before Pisces realize what they really want to do in their professional lives, but once they find a career that lets them manifest their interests and virtues they will excel at it.

OMG.

This is so accurate. FTW. =D

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You have an abundance of physical energy and self-confidence right now and can take on new projects and challenges with ease. You feel bolder and less dependent on others' affirmation and approval. Taking a strong stand or striking out on your own in some manner is likely to work out well for you.

SO TRUE BUT I HAVE NOTHING TO DO NOW. OMG. any suggestions? =(





Btw, I got it from some horoscope website cause I'm too lifeless.