Life's definitely a joke I can't seem to understand.

I'm saying this for the 3rd time and mean it, 2010 abhors me.

Sometimes I'm clueless on what I'm being tested. I don't know the purpose of all these things happening to me.

I just wanna die.

I feel so betrayed, unloved, under appreciated and unimportant.

Got it from Farah's fb profile. I personally, totally agreed with it.

So now, everyone of us clearly knows that WE can't come together as one as there's always conflict somewhere in between groups, or even 2 individuals. Why? Peace and serenade ain't hard to be achieved after all, ya know.

I'm sick of it.

People judge. People assume. People accuse. People come, people go.

-I'm building up those walls, just to test if someone cares enough to break it down.

finished.

THANK YOU GOD! (:

the war is finally done and over with.
and no, it's not the Korea one we're talking bout here.

love my new blogskin heh.

endless

I wonder when can you ever be done with the criticism.


whoever thinks he's correct WITHOUT listening to my side of explanation, termination of our friendship. I mean it. I'm sick of it. kthxbai.

quote :

I was laying down on the trampoline with my 6 year old cousin looking at the clouds.

As a bunch of birds flew over us, she smiled and said "I wish I was a bird. I could fly around and see the whole world, maybe even visit grandma in heaven...do you think god would let me visit just for a little bit?"

I miss being little.

cookies n cream.

Cookies n Cream Ice Cream

You are a sweet person. People like you for your innocence and charming nature. You appreciate the finer things in life. You are a practical person, but at times you are emotional. You get nostalgic about your past. You will be successful in romance.

Successful in romance? I wish. (:


After all, It only took me less than 24 hours to forget you.

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According to you, I complain too much bout my life. You hate me for that.
I personally think YOU HATE ME FOR WHAT I AM.

when your friends go emo you'd give them hugs.
Me? All I got was "you need psychology help" "your stupid pride" etc stuff which tear me even more inside. Have you EVER cared bout me really?

TELL THE WORLD I'M A LIAR.

I'm a liar. I've put up quite a show, I've never ever loved you before. TAKE THAT!

I wish I had no feelings at all.

After all that I've tried and all those moments I couldn't put myself together, you just wanna see me suffering from the cruel world like you'd imagined.

You don't see what I feel. You don't see my tears streaming down my cheeks reading your smses. You don't know what's behind everything.

You assumed, accused then you left. What am I left with? Absolutely nothing.

Now that I know what you think. I'll leave for my own good, or rather for your sake.

I never ever expected this to happen, so hard to take in yet so tough to take the anger and hatred out.

I've never been anywhere as cold as you.

Go spread the rumour around, tell the world I blame you for nuts.

My explanation is : I've never wanted to blame you. I just wanna shove the fact into your head, that I don't need you to make me a sadder child than I already am.

I'll just leave, okay?

I won't post hate posts bout you on FACEBOOK, you do that. I afraid not. That will only show your generosity is as low as drain is.

This is what happens to us for being a FRIEND.

screw you.

Some point in life, everyone should learn to give up on ramblings and stop depending on people we've always relied on.


change your priorities in life. This is what I gotta do, right now.

Yes, I'm a liar, so sue me.

Truth be told, I've missed you, I've loved you, I've had some trust in you, I'd always forgive you for your mistakes - just like what I would do for anybody else, but sadly it's NOT vice versa.
I rant, I get scoldings. I've poured my heart out to you, you ignored. So I finally realised I'm nothing. Moving on, I'll eventually get outta here, I believe.

People come, people go. So why should I keep holding on to you? There are million of people in this world, be it heartbreakers or liars, you're just like one of them. and out of the million people, I surely can find one that's more trustworthy, honest and more of a soulmate to me.

So what's with all these emotional posts that are mostly caused by YOU? I'll work on that. (:

look at you, look at me. I've become what I DON'T want to be. If you aren't one of my priorities anymore, then I should go back to what I was.

this eternal love.

I certainly love smsing my dad.

me : "Went for a game of bowling and failed epically. D: "
dad : "yeah, bowling needs practice. I'm quite good at bowling hehehe"
me : "that was my first time ): and the ball was too heavy for me. ):

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The fact that holidays are here certainly hasn't hit me yet. I'm slow, I know.

I've been busy and still am for the next week. Tuitions are still on, 3 hours AT LEAST everyday.

"So what if you have tuition everyday?" he said.
Please try living my life. THEN ONLY you'll shut up.

I just hate it when I put in total effort and ain't appreciated.

back to December.

We've finally got our freedom back! :D

To be frank, I find this boring. Spending 4 hours for nap, then internet. Bearing in mind that FB has nothing special anymore but I JUST can't help it. Contradiction ftw.

We're gonna return our text books 2moro, which is good, we won't be learning anymore b4 the holidays come. Teehee =D

I'm really in love with Taylor Swift's new album - Speak Now.
Here is one of my favourites. (:
The lyrics are so significant =')

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

All the time

- I really hate the feeling of missing someone. You actually know that you aren't in their mind, but you can't get them off your mind. Complicated as life has always been.